29 September 2014

Things I miss

Sunday dinners at a friend's house, and the games we played

Quietly snuggling on the couch

Feeling wanted instead of judged

Emanating love instead of irritation

Feeling like what I do matters

Not feeling trapped by my job

11 August 2014

I have a good life

If I repeat that often enough, maybe I'll stop thinking otherwise.

WTF is wrong with me?!?

30 July 2014

We'll see you soon (but not yet...not yet)

Well, I took the cat to the vet today. She was sicker than I had originally thought. The vet agreed that the humane thing to do would be to put the poor old girl out of her misery.

I had a very strong suspicion this was going to be the end result, so I spent the better part of the day cuddling her, before we actually went to the vet.

She's been part of my family, long before I had a family. She came into my life as a kitten in 1998; I didn't meet my wife until 2005.

Patches filled all of our lives with love, cuddles, and "puddins". There's a gaping hole in my heart.


29 July 2014

It's hard to say goodbye

Our cat, Patches, will be 17 years old this November. Or would be, except we don't think she's going to make it through the week. 

She hasn't taken food or water for about 6 days, can't walk more than a few steps before laying down to rest, is noticeably thinner, and is hiding in a box of blankets in our basement. She can barely manage a "meow".

She's been with me since she was a month old (long before I met my wife), and is the stereotypical lap cat.

We're planning on letting our 6 year old daughter spend some extra time with her tomorrow morning, after which I'll be taking Patches to the vet. I don't think she'll be coming home with me though.

I'm surprisingly upset about all this.

28 July 2014


...it feels like my life has been nothing more than a series of mistakes.


14 August 2013

How Dare You?!?

So today I was at a meeting with the stakeholders of a project I'm involved in.  The short version is that 2/3 of the sponsors had apparently had a separate meeting and decided that they wanted to take over the project.

Never mind that neither of them has met any of the project deadlines.

Never mind that neither of them could make a decision to save their lives (actually, they keep changing their minds, after the project team has implemented what they asked for).

Never mind that neither of them has any project management experience.

Never mind that they assaulted my integrity and reliability, but when I boiled their comments down and called them out, neither would take a stand.


14 May 2013

There are places I remember. ..

Like the Beatles tune, there are places, people and things I still can recall.

I miss one person in particular. While we never really made it past the "friends" stage (for a number of reasons), I always felt ... different ... when we would spend time together.